Reality

Cessation of work is not accompanied by cessation of expenses. ~Cato the Elder

You can think money is the root of all evil when you don't have to worry about having enough of it to survive. - Me

Silver Lining

I have been told that I am a positive, happy-go-lucky person. While I do my best to always see the bright side of things and to focus on the silver lining in any situation, I sometimes have to pretend to be happy. I suppose one cannot always have that joyful, carefree feeling and, sometimes, one must merely "fake it" to get through the day.

My life these past few years has been one full of stress, trials, one obstacle after another to overcome mixed in with bursts of joyful moments I will never forget. To say that life has been difficult, and remains so, is an understatement. Yet, still, I try to focus on the silver lining despite the downpour. And, boy, is it raining! There are the sunny breaks and the occasional drizzle in place of the torrential rain. But the rain inevitably returns. I sometimes wonder when it will stop. All things must come to an end, after all. And I hold on to that thought to help me get through the storm. But the water is rising and I fear I will drown. How long can you hold on to the things that matter the most, the people who give your life meaning, before the stress and fatigue of hanging on overtakes you?

I grow tired of merely "hanging on". I want to stand on solid ground again. But the storm goes on and that silver lining gets thinner and thinner. When will the sun finally come out and stay?